Speechless

Have you ever been so awestruck that no words could find their way out of your mouth? Maybe you have had a time when you were so confused you did not know what to do or say?  I communicate for a living and it’s a rare day when I am at a loss for words. In fact, when I find myself in hard situations I often over talk, becoming a rambling lunatic even. You see, that’s one of the crazy things about following Jesus. When I saw something that only […]

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Minute by minute: Accepting God’s care for us daily

Tick…Tick…Tick…I sat in the hospital watching the clock. Just hours before that I was standing in front of a trauma doctor while he explained to Amber and I the seriousness of the car accident. Olivia was given almost a zero percent chance to survive and Emma’s status was still unknown. My heart and mind raced to even comprehend what I was hearing but what I did grab hold of was that it would literally be a minute-by-minute process. So, my survival skills kicked in and I decided that I would […]

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The Death of Dreams: Truly learning that God has a plan

“Just follow me.”  In the Bible, from Abraham to Jesus’ disciples, God continued to call people to follow him. Even today, God calls those who claim him as God and King to follow.  Rarely does God give those who follow a clear map to where he might be leading them. In fact, those who do follow God may sometimes feel as though a blindfold has covered their eyes. Jesus is notorious for clearly calling, but remaining fuzzy on the destination. Minutes after we discovered the wreck had occurred, the Lord […]

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Failing Faith: Navigating life when I just don’t feel like I have enough faith

I have no idea how many miles I walked in the hallways of the ICU during those three weeks that Olivia was there. I remember on one particular jaunt, trying to process all that we were going through, I hit a spot I just felt like I could not go on any longer. In fact, I just stopped and sat down on a bench in a random hallway.  Right at that moment my phone buzzed, causing me to glance at the screen. I saw that it was my dear friend […]

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A Fallen World: Understanding that this world is not what we live for

Olivia was seven years old and she came to me saying, “Dad, I want to bat left handed.” My eyebrows came together and, I am sure, a quite puzzled look shot across my face. “Ok, why”? I asked. “I will be closer to first base when I hit, so I can get on base easier when I play.” First off, not too many 7-year-old kids think about what batter’s box they want to stand in when they play softball, let alone strategize how to increase her on-base percentage. I had […]

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Imagination

The foulness of vomit filled my mouth. Our girls were 48 hours post-accident. The initial shock sunk in and it felt as though my heart was on the outside of my chest. The bitter bile taste comes up just thinking about it. I stumbled out of the bathroom of the Pediatric ICU and slid down the wall. Two of my closest friends came and sat alongside me. Grief crashed over me in relentless waves. I wept from a place in my soul I had no idea existed. The waves slowed, […]

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Hard Turns

Life can take some pretty hard turns. Unless you are strapped down, ejection is eminent. On October 28th 2016 our family hit an unseen turn and we would find out how well we were strapped in. Some of you know our story, others even followed my posts on Caring Bridge. It was there that I recorded, as best I could, the events, effects, and emotions of that horrible day. Those of you who have not heard our story, continue to follow the upcoming blogs. You will learn more about my […]

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